SPT nope!

I didn't participate in SPT this week. We were suppose to say what we would see if we had eyes in the back of our heads. I was feeling very negative and thought no one wants to read that I would see who was shoving those knives in our backs, so I didn't do it. But I have since changed my attitude. Remember that word of the year- Flexibility? I have had to use that against my bionic wife powers this week. At first I said we would have to go to another ward, but I have since relented. I thought there was no way I could support a leader of our church who lies to a stake president in order to remove someone, who wouldn't know a leadership style if one batted him over the head and who runs his little area of "the kingdom" with conjecture and rumors and never tries to find out the other side of the story. Now I realize in the history of bad leaders, he isn't even in the running. He hasn't molested anyone, as far as I know. I don't think he is embezzeling or committing adultry or into child ponography or anything like that. I do think there must have been true inspiration on his calling, because no one in their right mind would have called him. So, now I am able to go to church and support this man, knowing that even he can not hurt the kingdom of God. It will come forth, despite all our faults. So much for Flexibility of the mind. Now here are some happy things that are getting me through the week:

1. Rob comes home tomorrow!

2. They finally built that playground they said they would across the street from our house. The kids are so excited. Unfortunately, Max thinks it is so close that he can go out there whenever he wants. Um, don't think so Mr. 2 year old!

3. The hoochie mama and her ghetto family and the other getto family that live with them and the other ghetto family that live with them (that was repeated twice on purpose! yep there are three families living over there!) are moving out! NO more base booming in our ears everytime we try to go to sleep, no more teenage boys hanging around, no more dances on their front stoop that make me have to cover my boys eyes, no more dog poop everywhere!

4. I figured out how to get songs onto my phone. All two of them! I guess that slot for a memory card is actually supposed to be used! Joseph really liked playing with my phone after that. And guess what. I'm still not tired of those two songs! I guess I chose well.

5. I may be over my phone minutes, because of all the wonderful friends and family that have called to see if I was Ok and to let me talk. How could I feel any rain, with so many umbrellas out there for me? Besides that a ton of people e-mailed! I feel really blessed.
6. I finally put music on my sight- did you notice! Pretty cool, hu? Of course, I may have to do a better job of screening which music I put on there. There is one I think is not so good for little ears!
7. Real men of Genius commercials, even though we don't drink beer. Whoever came up with this idea deserved a big raise!

A TUF Member

This week was an especially stressful one. I needed to send myself a whole bunch of umbrella's! Rob was gone Sunday and that's when I was especially depressed. During my annual exam they found a mass that I have to have a specialist look at. My husband was told he is going to Iraq either this summer or next for a year. And things with the Stake President didn't go well. If you read the disappearing post you are aware of what is going on. If not, I'm not writing about it again, you will have to send me an e-mail. Let's just say we are thinking of attending another ward. Mostly the depression comes from having a lot of unknowns. I hate unknowns. Of course they are known unknown and that is better than the unknown unknowns! Haha- sorry inside joke. That is something that the former Defense secretary said- the one that even Army times called for his resignation- Donald Rumsfeld.

I really needed to talk to someone, yesterday. All the sudden one of our friends showed up with cookies. She said they had made cookies during conference and taken them to her husband's home teaching families. They had one package left and she decided that she would bring them to us. They have much better friends in the ward than us and she wasn't sure why she thought of us, but I do. I am so thankful the Lord sent her at that time, to come and bring us some yummy cookies. I just needed to cry and talk. I am sure I stressed her out a little, but she was very good and offered to come with me to the gynecologist. It's wonderful to have friends that are in tune to the Lord and come to help when you need it most. I decided to make my own society. The Toting Umbrella Friends (TUF). It may be a society of one, but if you want, you can grab the picture I have on the sidebar. I just wanted it to be a person that is there for their friends and people in need. A person who does random acts of kindness to lift others. A person that is in tune to the Lord and the needs of their family and friends. It was so nice to have that friend show up at just the right time. I want to be able to do that for others! I don't know if this makes any sense, but I hope you will consider being a Toting Umbrella Friend also!